one of my favorite theater teachers always taught me not to use disclaimers before presenting work. he said, "let people see your art as it is, flaws & all. 9 times out of 10, they'll think it was planned." so I vowed to keep my art raw, & to leave the interpretation up to the interpreter. but see, often times I contradict myself, & this is one of those times. 


while reading this blog, please understand that my current state of mind is not my natural state of being. I'm in the lowest place I've been in a while. I'm far from home in this cold ass town, I'm all alone in this cold ass room, my money's not right, my mind's not right, and if that ain't enough, the only person I thought understood it all lost faith in me... & in us. anyway, I cry everyday, I cry in the middle of sentences, I'm just all fucked up right now lol. not sure why I wrote "lol" tho, 'cause I'm dead serious. God is the only thing that keeps me going. I thank Him that I'm still alive and that the people I love are alive & well .. that let's me know better days are coming. but as of now, my heart is cracked and cold, and writing is the only thing that seems to bring me peace.

so take that into consideration, and just give me time. soon enough, I'll be that butterfly, I'll grow them wings, but as of now, I'm just here inching along.